I remember that I should have childhood memories
I remember my mom getting mad at my dad, and my dad making her giggle
I remember crouching in the darkness of my hallway after my great-grandfather died and thinking that each moving shadow and each flash of darkness was him trying to communicate with me. Just me.
I remember carrying around my teddy roberts, my teddy bear, who now proudly sits on my arm chair in my very grown up college apartment

I remember my brothers laughing so carefree on that ramp
I remember loving them so much and almost crying out of protectiveness
I remember when my dad was upset because my mom was away on a trip
I remember when we were in Russia and my daddy called us his Russian Princesses

I remember dreaming that Peter Pan kidnapped my father
I remember learning that I was good at grammar
I remember losing the weight that summer
I remember gaining it back

I remember breaking up with my first real boyfriend
I remember the tears that came and the emails that were written
I remember that in a matter of weeks I was ok, but
I remember that in a matter of minutes I was crushed again

I remember realizing that I was in love with him
I remember laughing, and then I remember feeling the constant sting (which was never dulled by time) of unrequited love
I remember you facing me, and me facing you
I remember you saying you love me and then pulling me close, grasping my hand and kissing me

I remember the first time I was angry with you
I remember the first time you thought I was being an irrational girl
I remember the first time we made up and then watched a movie and laughed at how dumb our fight was

I remember our first real fight
I remember how you hurt me and twisted my insides and made me sick I remember when you came to my room crying hysterically and I stared at you and I cried
I remember when we realized that despite all the mistakes we were meant to be together and never meant to ever be apart

I remember that this poem can never really end
Perpetual remembrance